rough weeks

I've been sick for two weeks and it's the most discouraging thing that's happened to me for a long time. I've had to have a lot of really hard conversations with girls I'm discipling and i might have to tell someone to step down from leadership tomorrow. Almost all my leaders at SWIC are gone after the semester break, and we had two snow days during the days I was going to table.

Then tonight, I went out with Devin. Now, I've been looking forward to that all week. He's been insanely wonderful since i've been sick and I was looking forward to processing some things with him and just in general being around him.

But then, it was one big mis-communication fest. I felt like we were just missing each other all over the place. At one point, we were at starbucks and he's like, "we should probably go" and i'm like "ok" and then he said "I hate it because I'm really enjoying this conversation." I said "really? cuz I think it's stressful."

Weeks like this make me feel like I'm failing as a human being.